There are so many people in my life that I can go to to talk about something that is bothering me. The problem is there is not a single person I can go to to talk about EVERYTHING. I have people I can talk to about relationships, a few I can talk to about my homosexuality, and a few I can talk to about my needing a hug every few days. The problem is that there are very few people I can go to to talk about all of those things.
I wish there was one person in my phone that I could talk to about everything. I wish I could just dial up their number and cry to them about multiple things. I can't even do this to my mom. So I end up just sitting in a cold shower and cry to myself.
Because there is no one I can talk to about everything, I feel alone. There are many people I can talk to about many things, but I still feel alone because I don't want to have 3 different conversations with 3 different people to feel better. I want one long conversation with one person about many different things to make me feel better.
I used to have a few of those, but college pulled us apart. I used to have a lot of those people, but they stopped talking to me. I used to have a lot of people who would listen to me and let me cry, but I don't anymore, and some part of me feels that I won't have one for a while.
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